"Mad Song"
My madness is dear to me.
I who was almost always the sanest among my friends,
one to whom others came for comfort,
now at my breasts (that look timid and ignorant,
that don’t look as if milk had flowed from them,
years gone by)
cherish a viper.
Hail, little serpent of useless longing
that may destroy me,
that bites me with such idle
needle teeth.
I who am loved by those who love me
for honesty,
to whom life was an honest breath
taken in good faith,
I’ve forgotten how to tell joy from bitterness.
Dear to me, dear to me,
blue poison, green pain in the mind’s veins.
How am I to be cured against my will?
I read this poem once and then again and again and again. I find it inspiring and for me, relatable. In "Mad Song" Levertov writes in the first person about a narrator who feels she has gone mad (she because it speaks of milk flowing from breasts). There is an obvious struggle in the poem of her trying to come to terms with feeling not as sane as she used to be. Everyone gets to a point in their life where they become someone different than they were, and Levertov captures a picture of someone becoming used to their mental illness.
The first sentence of the poem already shows the coming to terms with her madness as it is "dear to [her]" (1). It then goes on to talk about her past. She claims she was "the sanest among [her] friends" (2). That is to imply her other friends were not very sane at all. Old age becomes obvious as well when she states her "breasts", they "look timid and ignorant" and "that don't look as if milk had flowed from them/ [for] years gone by" (3-5). This references that a woman in old age goes mad, especially without kids to care for. Her breasts "cherish a viper", which means that she is holding a trick close to her (6). Vipers are sly creatures. She talks more about serpents to illustrate that old age has made her "idle" (9). That could be another cause for madness.
The second half of the poem shows how someone with mental illness can still be loved. She's loved despite the madness that is dear to her. She is loved for "honesty" (12). She is still good and gives "honest breaths" (13). Finally, Levertov repeats the line "dear to me" twice (17). It sounds like a sort of a crazy person's babble. It's very deliberate. She then goes on to say "blue poison" and " green pain on the mind's veins" (18). The pain in the mind is the true indicator of mental illness. And the blue poison could be blood (as blood is blue inside the body). Last, Levertov asks "how can [she] be cured against [her] will?" (19). Because she has come to terms with her madness, she does not want to be cured, which for all she knows could be unorthodox methods.
Levertov writes a poem that captures the very real struggle of having the feeling of being not as sane as as one once was. It feels likes one's whole body is working against he or she, as Levertov points out with her statement about blood (blue poison). Her poem demonstrates a deep understanding of what she might have been through. The main message, however, is that her friends still love her for the qualities she does have.
The first sentence of the poem already shows the coming to terms with her madness as it is "dear to [her]" (1). It then goes on to talk about her past. She claims she was "the sanest among [her] friends" (2). That is to imply her other friends were not very sane at all. Old age becomes obvious as well when she states her "breasts", they "look timid and ignorant" and "that don't look as if milk had flowed from them/ [for] years gone by" (3-5). This references that a woman in old age goes mad, especially without kids to care for. Her breasts "cherish a viper", which means that she is holding a trick close to her (6). Vipers are sly creatures. She talks more about serpents to illustrate that old age has made her "idle" (9). That could be another cause for madness.
The second half of the poem shows how someone with mental illness can still be loved. She's loved despite the madness that is dear to her. She is loved for "honesty" (12). She is still good and gives "honest breaths" (13). Finally, Levertov repeats the line "dear to me" twice (17). It sounds like a sort of a crazy person's babble. It's very deliberate. She then goes on to say "blue poison" and " green pain on the mind's veins" (18). The pain in the mind is the true indicator of mental illness. And the blue poison could be blood (as blood is blue inside the body). Last, Levertov asks "how can [she] be cured against [her] will?" (19). Because she has come to terms with her madness, she does not want to be cured, which for all she knows could be unorthodox methods.
Levertov writes a poem that captures the very real struggle of having the feeling of being not as sane as as one once was. It feels likes one's whole body is working against he or she, as Levertov points out with her statement about blood (blue poison). Her poem demonstrates a deep understanding of what she might have been through. The main message, however, is that her friends still love her for the qualities she does have.